FreeDom Flowers. Yes, it is my real name! I changed my name when I was twenty-one years old to FreeDom and fifteen years later, married the love of my life who happened to have the last name Flowers. So here I am with a name I have come to embrace!
I'm a mama to two beautiful boys with another baby on the way. I started this blog to share my love of plant medicine with you. I'm an earth lover by nature and an herbalist by trade. I love being creative whether that be in the kitchen, crafting, medicine making, or taking pretty pictures. I love what I do and truth be told, it is more of an extension of who I am rather than a job. I have always lived by the model of find what you love and make something happen with it which brings me here to y'all.
I recently took a major shift in my career. I was an owner of a successful and respected Massage Therapy Center and Herbal Healing Practice called The Sanctuary for Healing Therapies. I started that business in 2008 as a single mother of a beautiful little boy in a small little room the size of a closet. I loved what I did and I wanted to make sure I could support my son and myself with that career choice.....so I grew. Slowly, each year I expanded and created something great and beautiful. It gave my son and me the life I truly desired for us, supported six others that worked at my company, and took care of an entire community of clients. It was wonderful and I wouldn't have changed it for the world. However, over the years, I started to burn out. I was going to school for formal training in herbal medicine with David Winston at The Center for Herbal Studies, expanding a business, being Mom to my son, met the love of my life, worked too many hours, graduated from my herbal studies program, supported us all through my partner's full time masters degree program, doing work on a foreclosed home that we purchased, got pregnant, had another baby, continued to run and manage my business......and boom! As wonderful as all of these things were, I was depleted. I needed a change desperately and took the first year of my youngest son's life to do some soul searching on what I wanted with my quickly changing life. I'm not going to lie, it was really hard. I battled with some heavy emotions about knowing I needed a change and didn't know which way to turn. My now husband, graduated from his masters degree program in the fall and was starting to go into his career which gave me some more flexibility to make some choices about my life based off of what I really want without the pressure of needing to be the bread winner.
It became very clear to me that my business was a major drain on my body, mind, and spirit. The thing that I loved so much was the human connection, being with my clients in the treatment room, assisting them in their healing process. Being home with my kids. Having a family dinner at the table every night. I missed those things so much it hurt. I didn't love managing, putting out fires, making sure all the staff had clients and were loyal to what I had built. It was exhausting and I didn't feel fulfilled by it. That's when I realized. It was time. Although it was successful, I wasn't happy anymore and that is not true success. I parted ways with my staff and encouraged them to follow their paths and to take their clients with them. I did grieve the loss of all that I built but I knew I wanted this so much I ached for the day I officially could close the doors to my old place. I still see my massage clients and at times take on new ones but I like keeping it simple. I like having time to talk with my clients after their massage over a cup of tea or time to make them an herbal formula on the fly if they need it. I am more interested in focusing in my calling to herbal medicine. Besides wanting to simplify my massage practice, and be with my family more, I wanted to have more time to integrate my herbal consultations, knowledge, and medicine making skills. So back to my point, I know what I love! I have traveled a windy road to come back to my roots of what it is that I love but I got here and I am so grateful for the journey.
I am looking forward to this new chapter and to bringing herbal medicine and knowledge to you through my new blog!